Where are you in this process? Some people are just beginning this, what I call “the phoenix process”. They have the awareness that things need to change, but haven’t actually taken any practical, specific steps. They know they need therapy, but haven’t started. They know their job is making them miserable, but are afraid to leave the security of the old. Or they know they need a relationship dynamic to change, and they attempt, but each attempt at change is actually another variation of the same old habit. Others may be breaking new ground, doing the work, breaking through to new solutions, breaking out of old habits and expanding their consciousness… only to eventually realize they’ve reached yet another layer, and there’s more work to do.
The Uranus-Pluto square is demanding. A square demands new actions be taken, or we will suffer unrelenting misery. But before we can move forward, we must look at all the ways we self-sabotage, the abandonment and betrayal tapes we play, the people we haven’t forgiven or forgotten. Pluto has us trudge through our toxic sludge, through re-wounding, we experience ancient hurts and betrayals only to realize that no one is truly hurting us now, today we are the one hurting and betraying our self. In cycles, as we do this intensive shadow work, like an explosive Uranus blasts off another layer of sludge and we get closer to touching the answers we seek and to experiencing the freedom of the True Self. Like the Uranus-Pluto cycle itself, this happens in stops and starts.
Upheaval and changes of plans, being stretched to the emotional max, can become a way of life. That’s the nature of the square. Self-revelations, diving deep into one’s truth, making dramatic shifts of allegiance in one’s people, relationships, lifestyle. Support – from friends, loved ones, therapists, healers, astrologers, coaches – is crucial. But if there’s one thing I could pass on to you it would be this: listen. It is your inner voice, the one who knows how to soothe its own fears when panicked, to take a walk, a break, have a cup of tea, ground and tune into exactly what needs to happen next. It may be nothing needs to happen, it may be something big. Inner listening is our greatest ally. But we can only have this gift of inner listening if we are connected to our Self, our body.
American Indians would put their ear to the ground and hear a stampede of buffalo before they came into the field of vision. In harmony with the land, they would listen to and trust the information gleaning an instinctual awareness their eyes couldn’t yet see. Many ancient civilizations had this ability to tune in to what was happening, whether game or a potential threat, before seeing them. It is the same with us: connection, to oneself, to one’s intuition, body and the Earth, can alert us to both disaster and opportunity. Our challenge is to really listen, to trust that the information we’re feeling inside is real, and to allow it to lead us to finding solutions before the stampede of buffalo either runs over our flower bed or we miss the opportunity it presents altogether.
The deer is a beautiful embodied example of how to do this. We have these beautiful deer all over Marin, chomping at foilage on the side of the road, wandering all around the neighborhood. If you’ve interacted with deer you know how poised, graceful -and sensitive they are. They have to be; there are threats (bobcats and wolves) around every corner. The deer is super sensitive and alert to changing conditions and danger, yet remains calm, flexible and graceful and responsive because she is in tune with her body senses and her environment.
Jupiter in Cancer is currently t-square this configuration by sign, and is the missing link to the brutal feeling nature of this square. Jupiter brings the opportunity to holistically and remedially apply Cancer balm to our wounds: to start listening to our intuition- no longer ignoring the still small voice, be tender, responsive, nurturing, gentle and caring toward our body, soul and Spirit. We need to listen to what the body and life is telling us it needs, then we need to take action, to tenderly care for our Self as a mother would for a child. If we can’t yet muster the healing compassion we most need, a stand in “mother” – a coach, a best friend -can show us how deeply we’re hurting, the tears we’ve been crying silently for years, and what we are ready to change. No matter how we find it, we receive transformative healing and grace through self-compassion and love.
We can find this connection during the Uranus-Pluto square. We need this grace born of deep connection and harmony with our body-environment, otherwise our anxieties, survival fears, mental chatter will derail spin us out into darkness. Pleasure and gentleness is so important, too; pulsing pleasure into pressure-filled times is so healing for the Spirit. So keep being honest with your self, keep looking for new solutions, but remember that this is a marathon not a sprint. Seek ways to keep your faith candle lit, actively care for and love your body-Spirit. This will keep you centered, flexible and responsive to what life is asking from you.